well, my last tea has been made and is currently steeping as i type. lemonade is done too, next time i do this (!) i'm getting one of those plastic hand juicer things, no more squeezing lemons like a chump.
so the last few days ive really been craving food...not because i'm starving or hungry, but because i want to taste and chew again. and because of that i havent really just sat and thought about how i really feel, subconsciously. i honestly feel that this whole fast has really made a difference, for the better. people keep asking if its worth it, or how do you even do it... i do believe the only way it can be done is if you really WANT to do it, not because you should. i found a whole new level of willpower i never thought i had. shit, ive quit smoking and started back up again within the same 24 hour period more times than i got fingers. ive realized that i have calmed down quite a bit, overall. a lot more relaxed, NO stress (which is a huge problem for me), my head is clear and my concentration is on point. now i dont know if its coincidence or a placebo effect, but i'm curious as to see how the next few weeks go when it's really business as usual.
so im going to drink my tea and wake up to one last helping of salt water and the final day of this "ordeal". would i do it again? probably if i felt the same urge i felt 10 days ago. is it worth it? i'd say absolutely. if nothing else, its a healthy challenge to put yourself through with terrific benefits (especially if you smoke). and even though i got one day to go, i feel like i've really proved something to myself.
i am going to read this in a few days and hate myself for coming off like such a moe.
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