7/27...DAY 5, 10am

wow. day 5. i'm quite proud of myself for making it this far, let alone even starting it in the first place. but this is only the halfway point...actually, as of 5pm today it will be 5 full days without an ounce of food. and i feel GOOD. incredible. 5 more days to go, no problem, it's all downhill from here.

so i think people letting me know they've been reading and actually give 2 shits about this endeavor has been a huge help, for real. it's that much harder to break down and give in when you're going to disappoint others as well as yourself. although i bet a couple of you are actually rooting for the food to win. NO DICE. ok, sappy crap aside....

i love the morning. i'm wide awake, i'm energetic, my drive to work is almost fun as i fly through traffic (bionic vision) and most importantly, my mouth doesnt feel and taste like someone shit in it yet. this is becoming the only real discomfort... by the end of the day my mouth is gross, even with mouthwash every once in a while. my teeth feel like they have crap all over them, but visibly, theres nothing. and my tongue still looks like i dipped it in flour, its got that pasty, half dry/half moist coating thing going on.

i really miss eating. the taste of things, the chewing, the swallowing. i'm not hungry though. if you were to feel like this for 40 days, you could 100% fast for 40 days, i believe it. the hunger just isn't there. right now though, i got my heart set on some crackers and hummus next saturday after my 2 days of introducing some broth, juice and raw veggies back into my system. i'm not going to lie, i want to eat again, soon. hopefully just not as much or as horrible.

i didn't lose any more weight, which is odd. odd because stuff keeps coming out, and i'm pretty sure it's more than what's going in. i feel ALOT less bloated and gross though, thats for sure. so it's not really a deterent that i'm not losing weight, but it would be nice if my body would start eating itself already. maybe i need to try to exercise a little more.

redbulls game yesterday was awesome, had a lot of fun. got to watch people tailgate and pound beer and eat meat for an hour. didnt bother me as much as the BBQ the night before. just kept drinking water to keep the belly full. once inside, no worries. i did start to get a little weak after 2 hours of no juice though, blood sugar droppin'... had some cold juice in a cooler bag waiting out in the car though. and i used my empty gallon jug in the lincoln tunnel on the way to the game, i was going to explode thanks to crosstown traffic. ended up leaving the piss filled bottle in jenn and hugo's asian neighbors garbage can in brooklyn, he walked over and inspected it as we drove away. sorry buddy.

ok.